A Life Changed

When I found out I was pregnant, I was scared and confused. How was I going to tell my parents that I was pregnant? How would we tell my boyfriend’s parents that we were going to have a baby? How could I raise a child? What about my future, my plans? All I could think about was this is a problem that I have to take care of. Abortion would end the problem. No one would ever know. I could continue my life as normal. Besides, I didn’t want my boyfriend to have to marry me so abortion seemed like the best choice for me.

I was one of the statistics that 4 in every 10 abortions are churched women. I was raised in the church. Sunday morning, Sunday night, Wednesday night, youth group, I did it all, yet I never heard about abortion and what it was. The church never talked about that.

A few days later, I found a Planned Parenthood near me and had the procedure. I was actually relieved that this problem was over. I went about my life, got married later, gave my life to Christ, had children, a career and everything seemed to be going well. About 10 years later I was listening to a Focus on the Family broadcast about abortion. As I heard them talk about the procedure and that it isn’t a glob of tissue, this is a baby at the point of conception, I began to sob and could not believe I could have done such a thing to my baby. I decided I just had to bury this inside of me because how could God forgive something like this. I didn’t think that was possible. I knew He forgave sins and would probably forgive your sin but not this, not mine. I would be fine for a while but then I would read something, hear something about the pro-life movement and I would fall apart again. I carried this burden for almost 30 years until God told me you are going to have to do something about this. Bring it out in the open and tell someone. I wrestled with God for days until He broke me, He won as He always does. I called a local pregnancy center, told her my story, and asked for help.

Going through the Bible study, Forgiven and Set Free, I was finally able to accept God’s forgiveness and grace for my abortion. In Psalm 32, David tells us:

Blessed is the one whose transgression is forgiven, whose sin is covered.

For when I kept silent, my bones wasted away through my groaning all day long.

For day and night your hand was heavy upon me; my strength was dried up as by the heat of summer.

But

I acknowledged my sin to you and I did not cover my iniquity; I said I will confess my transgressions to the Lord and you forgave the guilt of my sin.

Wow, my chains were gone! The guilt was gone! I was free! Not only does Jesus forgive our sin, the guilt I carried around so many years was now covered by His grace poured out on me. I cannot express the gratitude and blessing that I was to receive.

So, God said NOW do something and I said “I’m ready!” I want to help women and men faced with this life changing decision to know the facts and options so they will not go through the pain and guilt that I did! I want to help them find the freedom they are searching for in Christ, help them choose life, and walk with them along the way.

If you have had an abortion in your past and want to have the freedom from that guilt, please contact us. We can help you!

You are God’s masterpiece, created in His image, and He loves you more than you can imagine!